YES, it's definitely TRUE.

WE have a God. Jesus is true and the Holy Spirit really works in us. Ive not really proven that in myself before but just this July 24, 2011, I experienced the proof.

I was annointed with oil by Pastora Beth Santos. I never expected, I cried a lot, like A LOT after she touched my forehead and after she touched my hands with oil, I fell in the ground, crying. I felt something pushed me but No one even did something like that. I just fell in the floor. I cried. I totally Cried. Yes, I have proven it in myself. It is true. I felt it and I experienced it and I am proud of it. God bless You! :)

"I've got joy in the Lord and He is my strength"

Certain people

there is a certain time that you felt a certain feeling of irration to a certain person that have not done any certain thing to you. I always thought I will never encounter this certain person at a certain time for I thought the feeling of irratation to someone that did not do anything wrong especially when you don't know at all is a product of pre judgment that is caused by insecurity.

but why am i feeling it?
can you consider me insecure?

Eyes of very Eyes

tell what you wanna tell. Go and make yourself bothered. It's bad, I know. But I never asked you to critic because that wasn't done for you... I'm a private person known public. Still private. Just think of me that way. And we'll all be good.

I'm being irrational

"Like it or not, even though they're a lot like me, WE'RE NOT THE SAME"

If I'm going to say this to you, I bet you'd say like "did I say you're the same?" and I would be like "I know but..." and I'll be left out of words.

-yeah. yeah!

Ok, why am I feeling like this?!!! AUGHH! I usually don't have that raised-eyebrow-attitude looking at girls. because I think I'm confident with myself and I guess I don't have that bitch close minded ass that most of the girls have. Like girls are so insecure about other girls and that make out fights out of non-sense issues. I'm no that kind of bitch but I know this is totally non-sense! We'll not totally...

-AHHHHH!

And I therefore conclude that even how different you've oriented yourself, when you're a girl, you can't avoid that sometimes you'll realize the inner manner of a woman's character really exist in you. Like women are insecure, jealous, irrational and sometimes a totally astray from rationality.

So, this feeling started looking at your FB account knowing your past and knowing your girls. And guess what? Your ex-bitch who I've heard that is not a bitch at all is getting to my nerves!Plus that other bitch who you go with now. And they didn't even do anything to hurt me! AHHH!

YOUR EX-BITCH

she's like the person who changed you because of your break-up. You're like "From now on, I'm only gonna break girls' hearts" which you've clarified that you are excluding me. (he didn't clarify that to my face but to her mother's face *better that way because he wouldn't lie to a mom when it's about love) Sooo. I was browsing her profile and I was like having that bitchy attitude when I said "she's so ordinary..." But what the hell! She freakin' turned you into a bad ass! And I'm actually doubting that MAYBE you're still in-love with her!!!! And I'm even more confused when your sister told me that this bitch asked her like "Is your bro into someone new now?" and I heard that I'm like "is she still into you?" and what if you'll know that. Would you get back to her?

THAT BITCH WHO'S INTO YOU

And you're not really together, ayt? yeah right but please what she posts on her wall and on your wall is making people believe that you're together! I can understand that you're just being THE guy but others can't! I don't want to fall out! blaah. blaaah. She's an ordinary slut. She likes you and you like that. I don't care if you don't really like her and you're just being consistent to your vow that your gonna hurt girls 'til you find the right one, I'm just being bothered that you might fall in your trap.

YOU

I don't even like you! Like who the hell are you compared to other guys whom I've ditched! Like you're way too different. But don't treat me this way. You can just make me the reserve while you make your vow hurting girls then once you're tired you're getting back?! Are you in a crisis now that you have to spend your time to girls you have no plans of loving? Are you gonna be always trapped on your vow because of your ex? Come'on! MOVE ON! not in the feelings you have for her (*because you'll say you have aready moved on) but move on from your anger and hurt. WOOO!

ME

And why am I freakin affected by the people I know I'm totally different and to a person I'm not really into? I guess it's not the only boys who have egooo because I feel it's on me right now. I guess I gotta shake it out... mmmmm.

-Confusing?

-Like WHAAAAT?

-WHATEVER!

I'm just being irrational!!!!

Saving Grace

"I'm only human and that's my saving grace". And why do you put me on a pedestal? like I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below?... It's only in your mind. Everything I have, everything you think I am reflects who I am. But that doesn't determine me.

My grades don't determine me.

My awards don't determine me.

My friends don't determine who I am either.

My faults don't determine my whole being but it is a part of it.

My faults are like other's faults but I don't rationalize my mistakes with that, for I sure know that two or more mistakes and copying from them doesn't make it right. Well anyway, we have our own opinions and we're all entitled to them. I'll leave you with your own thoughts and conclusions but what surprises me is dragging me to the negative side. There's so many things I could do, like put you to jail, seize you or whatever because that was personal and wasn't supposed to be spread. But you made all the work. Honestly I have my own opinions about you but I kept it to myself. We can have different opinions and judgments, right? But we don't have the right to drag the thoughts of others conforming your thoughts. I was never a hypocrite or fake or whatever adjective that sounds pretentious for I never brag you to the thinking that I resemble perfection because you thought it for yourself. I act who I am. Maybe you think I'm hypocrite or fake because you discovered I'm not really the person you want to. But what you want to is not me. Well at least not the whole. For somehow, I am half or forths of what you think. But don't get me wrong. I never blamed you. I appreciate how you appreciated me. And I will always consider you as my friend. I could still be someone you can run into when school works, family problems, or financial problems (pag naa lang koy kwarta) twist your mind. I wouldn't lay you off for true friendship forgives and accepts. There's just one thing I ask of you, whatever you think I am now or how you have judged me well, don't make this thinking bring you to the thought that the friendship I offer with you is fake, for that would be a total lie. Even if things changed in you for who I am... I would never change my thoughts for you as a friend. I would never lose my grip. Even how many twist and turn you'd do, I'll never let you move. Just Until the time you'd dump me. :)

When there's Peace

It's been a long time since the last dispute about ate nicee and stuffs had puffed out. And finally, everything is silent now. We were able to contact her once in a while and Thank God she responds. Seems I've really missed her after all. Well, maybe it's not like the way it was before but it's good that everything is trying to fall back to its places. And now, we are just waiting for her come back. And lab's issues, she and Juvpres has withdrawn their filed case against each other. Even though their not talking or even giving a chance to look at each other, it's good that there's no problem, concerning both, awaits them anymore. It's good to cool up everyone. It's good to breathe freely. And finally,there's peace.

"Ang Ipis na Dato"

-Mao na siya ang tubag nako kay KC tong gitext niya si ruby nga "ipis ra ka para sa ako". Yaga-yaga man siya paminawon, pero sa tinuod lang, makapungot na siya. Never in my life ako nagkahilig anang away-away. Kay para sa ako, ang mga away na tungod sa chismis, o tungod lang sa gamay nga bagay unya iagi og hagit-hagit nga sumbaganay og atang-atang sa dalan kay pang-HIGHSCHOOL lang.

Unsa may Sinugdanan....

Nagsugod ang tanan sa problema. Ang problema nga dili mashare ni ate nicee kay dili kompleto ang o'hana(grupo namo) Gusto na niya ishare pero murag nafeel niya nga wala jud mi nagcare, mao to minglayo na siya sa amo... pero dili pa jud kaayo.

Unang Strike

Nagsunod-sunod na ang mga adlaw, semana og bulan nga wala najud mi kadungog og balita kang ate nicee. Sa usa ka higayon sa boarding house, nag-uban si lab-lab, ruby og rhea B., nag-istoryahanay sila nga pangutan-on kung kumusta na si ate nicee og kung asa na siya ron. Ang problema, di man siya nagareply.... mao iyang mama na ang gitext gamit ang CP ni ruby... Gitext kung aha siya. Tas ming-ana man iyang mama na nagpa-enroll si ate nicee last monday pa(pero dili ni tinuod). Gipangutana pod kung mag-kauban pa sila sa boarding house. Nitubag ra pod si ruby nga dili na... og uban pang mga pangutana og tubag nga dili na nako ma-cite.

Pipila ka adlaw ang nilabay, mingkalit na og text si ate nicee nga nasuko na kang ruby... "stubborn" kung siya pay ipadescribe kang ruby sa iyang text. Nasuko siya kay gitext iyang mama. Sa among huna-huna, "naa jud ni ginatago si ate nicee sa iyang mama". Ang punchline niya sa amo kay kabalo daw siya kung kinsa ang plastic og dili sa amo-a. Ang ruby pod ming-ingon nga "concern lang man mi te mao amo gipangutana." pero iyang tubag kay..."walay word of honor". Hinuon pod, niana naman si ate nicee daan nga dili itext iyang mama.

Ang dalan padulong strike 2

Usa ka higayon, nag-shot ni sila akong mga amiga. Kami ni ruby kay na-timingan nga naidtog SM kay naa iyang mama. Karon, na-open ni yam ang mga sekreto nga gipang-ingon sa iya ni madam nga gikan sa source nga si Juvpres. Ang mga istorya-istoray kay a) nakuha na niya si lab-lab, b) dili siya sure kung siya bay naka-una, c) buntis si ate nicee og d) dili siya sure kung kinsa ang amahan (kung si Bimbo ba o Arman). Karon pirting lagot ni lab-lab og giyab-an niya og toyo si juvpres. Daghan ang nahitabo nga events sa issue ni lab-lab og juvpres nga idetalyi sa lahi nga blog.

strike 2

Gitext ni ruby og ni lab-lab si ate nicee about sa iyang issue. Natural! nasuko si ate nicee. Ang lahi lang kay nasuko siya didto noon sa nag-inform sa iya. Kay ana siya "isa lang sa o'hana ang nagapakalat kasi kayo lang man ang may alam sa names". Nagsugod na og kalain ang o'hana. Sa utok kay "ikaw na gani ang hatagan og info, kami pa pasanginlan". Kadugayan, nahimo ng si ruby ang nagpakalat daw sa issue. Nashock ang o'hana kung asa gikan si ate nicee sa iyang conclusion. Nagtext siya og kasuko kang ruby. Naluoy nami. Kabalo man mi nga dili tinuod. Og sabay pa jud sa problema pa isa ni lab-lab. Mao to wala nay makapugong sa kasuko ni ate nicee.

Resulta sa mga strikes

Naa ni amiga si ate nicee nga ang pangalan kay KC. Nag-away-away ni sila ni ruby sa text. Nilabot ra gud siya. Threat diri, threat didto. Kesyo padaghanay og connections, pa-isogay og uban pa. Mao na ni siya ang gina-ingon na ko nga pang- HIGHSCHOOL ang drama. Uso pa jud diay sa mga tigulang na ang dumog-dumog. Well, mas lalom lang noon gamay kay kaya naman daw niya mupatay. Usa ka higayon, nag-atang si ang grupo nila KC sa dorm kay nanghagit naman kang ruby og away. Timing pod nga naay away si lab-lab og si job(uyab ni lab-lab), mao gi-ubanan namo si lab-lab sa Panacan. E di, wala mi sa dorm. Naghulat-hulat sila didto og nangitag away. Pagbalik namo sa dorm, minglakaw na sila pero wala pa naundang ang mga threats nga biskan sa parents ni ruby naabot na. Og wala pa ko kabalo kung kanus-a sila sunod mag-atang-atang napod sa dalan para makipagsumbaganay. Pati mga sekreto NGA GISABUTAN UNTA NGA DILI IPAGAWAS, ginapang-gawas na.

Reaksyon sa o'hana

Dili lalim nga ingnan og plastic. Mas dili lalim na maingnan og tigpakalat og istorya-istorya labaw na kung usa ka amiga ang nagadeclare ana. Nalain ang o'hana sa ana nga mga polonga. Og wala jud nag-expect nga si ate nicee kay mag-inter-inter na og atang-atang para makipag-away sa dalan. Naa pa jud mga death threat nga involve. Biskan pa in-ana, nagarespeto gihapon everytime motext sa iya... naturingan man gud siya nga ate sa grupo, pero kadugayan, napul-an ra pod. Lain naman god. Ginaisip pod namo nga basig dako ra jud siya og problema mao na-ing-ana na siya pero lisod gihapon katuohan. Nag-conclude naman siya dayon kung kinsa maski wala pa siya kabalo sa uban nga side. Karon, naa lang gihapon ang o'hana. Pero dili na siya ginatawag by that name. "Oi" na siya karon. Mao lang gud gihapon nga grupoha- mas isog lang og mas intact. Karon, magtinabangay sa kanunay na ang tema. So, hantod unsa man ang kinahinatnan ani nga away. -magpabilin mi sa kamatuoran. Bahala nag daghang muingon nga bakak, basta mao ang tinuod. Salamat!