Saving Grace

"I'm only human and that's my saving grace". And why do you put me on a pedestal? like I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below?... It's only in your mind. Everything I have, everything you think I am reflects who I am. But that doesn't determine me.

My grades don't determine me.

My awards don't determine me.

My friends don't determine who I am either.

My faults don't determine my whole being but it is a part of it.

My faults are like other's faults but I don't rationalize my mistakes with that, for I sure know that two or more mistakes and copying from them doesn't make it right. Well anyway, we have our own opinions and we're all entitled to them. I'll leave you with your own thoughts and conclusions but what surprises me is dragging me to the negative side. There's so many things I could do, like put you to jail, seize you or whatever because that was personal and wasn't supposed to be spread. But you made all the work. Honestly I have my own opinions about you but I kept it to myself. We can have different opinions and judgments, right? But we don't have the right to drag the thoughts of others conforming your thoughts. I was never a hypocrite or fake or whatever adjective that sounds pretentious for I never brag you to the thinking that I resemble perfection because you thought it for yourself. I act who I am. Maybe you think I'm hypocrite or fake because you discovered I'm not really the person you want to. But what you want to is not me. Well at least not the whole. For somehow, I am half or forths of what you think. But don't get me wrong. I never blamed you. I appreciate how you appreciated me. And I will always consider you as my friend. I could still be someone you can run into when school works, family problems, or financial problems (pag naa lang koy kwarta) twist your mind. I wouldn't lay you off for true friendship forgives and accepts. There's just one thing I ask of you, whatever you think I am now or how you have judged me well, don't make this thinking bring you to the thought that the friendship I offer with you is fake, for that would be a total lie. Even if things changed in you for who I am... I would never change my thoughts for you as a friend. I would never lose my grip. Even how many twist and turn you'd do, I'll never let you move. Just Until the time you'd dump me. :)